She abandoned me. I was furious. I was willing to serve her, to learn from her, but she left me to find my own way, with no guidance at all.
Was there no loyalty amongst vampires?
The answer is no. There isn’t. So, she expected none from me. I understand that now.
And she may have been right, because, while I wanted to follow her anywhere, my most base instincts would have led me to defy her somewhere down the line. She knew that then, even if I didn’t.
But she didn’t think me a lost cause either. Something must have given her hope. Something held her back. She may have abandoned me there to fend for myself, but it was completely within her power to just kill me.